Follow the Thread of Your Heart!
What exactly is the thread of your heart? And why should you follow it?
For me, the thread of my heart appears as a gentle thought, an idea, that I used to believe was of my making, and which I would often disregard and soon forget.
Lately, when I get these ideas of the heart, subtle and easy to ignore, I follow the thread.
I’ve been watching a lot of coverage of the Black Lives Matter protests, even in the morning. I know this is not what I should be fueling my mind with at the start of my day. So instead of automatically being pulled into the footage from the previous day, today I listened to my heart which whispered to me: read.
I’ve been reading Into the Magic Shop by James Doty, so I decided to read a bit of that this morning. After consuming a few pages, I learned how powerful an organ my heart is. It pumps 7,500 liters of blood through the body and beats 100,000 times each day. Awestruck and grateful, I placed my hand on my heart and thanked it. My heart is there doing its job without my thought or will. It hit me that I take it for granted even though it is the reason I can do what I do and experience the life that I live.
Recognizing this made me marvel at the wonder of life and started my day on a good foot.
Then a thought crossed my mind, or rather my heart served up a thought to it about love and the idea that true romantic love exists and can exist for me. Along with this nascent belief came the image of Clarence, the angel from the movie It’s a Wonderful Life.
And I got the sense that I, too, have an angel who is working in the background of my life to earn his wings through my journey to find true and lasting love. Guiding my ways. Sending me messages. Testing me and even saving me from going down a path that would inhibit love from arising and blossoming. An angel who is placing people experiencing the kind of love I would like to experience squarely in my track, proving to me this type of love truly exists and endures.
My Clarence has sent me someone who I believe could be the one. Someone attentive yet calm and measured in his attraction and desire for me. Someone who will help me to slow down, and not be too anxious about falling in love. Someone who understands the gentle dance of romance, courtship, and love.
I pray that my Clarence earns his wings and that I am a good student who hears the faint musings of my heart and follows the thread, undeterred and undistracted by self-doubt and past failures.
It’s not a coincidence that the passage I read from Into the Magic Shop was about opening the heart to connect with others. It helped me understand that what I experience, be it loneliness, heartache, or the desire for love, is something others have struggled with too. These are the things that connect us on a profound level. These are the things that let us know we are not alone. These are the things that open the heart and allow love to enter, flourish, and endure.
